in love
HAHAHA. This post is supposed to be last night's, but I was here in my bed, lying all night 'till 4:30 AM this morning. HAHAH. You know boils? Search it in Google, HiHi. In Philippine term, it is known as "Pigsa". HAHAHA.
The Pigsa grows on my right leg. It really H-U-R-T-S! :'( You know the feeling when you were pricked by a push pin, so hard into your bones? That is my feeling! OMG. I didn't sleep so well, because of the freaking pain! I think, I only slept for only 4 hours? hahaha. But still no signs of tiredness. HiHi. So good!
Then, I met a boy, on tumblr. We had chat via TA. Thanks to him because without him, I would feel bored, and maybe my excruciating pain would really ruined my night. THANK YOU, if you're reading this, you know who you are.. HAHAHA Vampire. :P
4:30 AM, i haven't felt sleepy but I really, really tried no close my eyes to just relax, but good thing, I fell asleep. I woke up 6:30 AM. HAHAH.

Thank you. :)
God bless.
HHAHAH
-April 18, 2011
in love
And because the net connection was lost last night, I haven't post my daily daily diary entry. :D
Yesterday, nothing unusual happened. Except that, last night, my ex chatted with me on facebook. Well, he knows we broke up, but that was just a lie. He courted me, so fast, huh! But, I told him, NO!
It's just because I changed my relationship status on facebook, from 'in a relationship' to 'single', we broke up already. no. And, I feel like I'm cheating to my boyfriend even though I didn't accept any offers. HAHA 'offers'. :( But, my significant other said, that he would wait. naah! NO COMMENT..

Well, NAAH! I won't give any hopes on him and I would stay loyal to my boyfriend. BOW!

And, yeah, my internet connection was lost last night, and because of boredom? hahah.. I took pictures using my camera built-in on laptop! I took, I think, 71 pictures all in all. HAHAH Want to view? here. It's on facebook. :)

-April 17, 2011
in love
35th Monthsary namin, kahapon, pero ngayong araw icenelebrate. HAHA
  1. nagpunta siya bandang ala una ng hapon dito sa bahay.
  2. may ipapasagot daw siya sakin, okay naman ako.. :D
  3. 6 sticks, magkapareho ng haba, dapat daw makabuo ako ng apat na equilateral triangles. HAHA
  4. sumuko na’ko, di ko nasagot ee. XD haha
  5. hirap iexplain kugn paano. HAHAHAH
  6. sticks trick pa rin, (In sticks) I + II + III = IIII, pa’no daw para magka’equal yung both sides, dapat daw isang move lang sa left side, ma’eequal na siya sa four. HAHAHA.. ewan.. 
  7. lapit ko ng masagot, pero di ko pa rin nasagot, MALAPIT lang. HAHAHA
  8. tapos nu’n, kinunan ko yung gurang ng mga puting buhok. HAHA. sabi ko, isang kiss kada isang buhok. HAHAHA.. dami ko ring nakuha.. pasaway na talaga akoo. XD
  9. umalis sila lahat, pamilya ko, kami lang naiwan.
  10. nag’facebook siya, at nakachat yung ex nia. HAHAH..
  11. nalaman namin, buntit na pala ex nia. weheeew Congratulations.XD
  12. pagdating nila mama, may dalang butter at sugar, gawa daw ako ng cookies. :)
  13. ee ang kapal ng butter, sobraaang tigas niya! haha.. kaya minurder ko muna..
  14. after an hour, pinaghanap kami ni mama ng chocolates para sa cookies sa labas.. ee? inabot kami sa malayoooong kanto, para makabili, lapit isang oras din yun. hahah
  15. pag’uwi namen, nanjan si boyfriend ni sister, monthsary nila ngayon.
  16. pinapunta talaga siya ng maaga sa bahay dahil dun daw kakain para di na lumabas sina sister para sa labas magcelebrate, o di ba bongga si parents! HAHAHA
  17. after dinner, nanghugas ng pinggan si boyfriend ko, tumulong ang sis at si boyfriend nia, ee ako, busy kakaprepare sa pagluto ng cookies.. HAHA.. 
  18. Nakagawa pa ng kasalanan yung dalawa! nabasag yung lagayan ng cooking oil, bumaha ng oil sa area ko. NAKU! ahaha
  19. baking baking baking naaa! kami ni boyfriend ko ang naghintay na maluto si cookies. HAHA.. kinulit ako ni gurang kung ano daw mga hinanakit ko sa kanya.. para daw, pag’3rd anniversary namin, wala ng mga hinanakit. HAHA
  20. change topic ako agad, brain wash ako sa topic na yan. wla talaga akong maalala kung bakit naiinis ako sa kanya. HAHAH
  21. tinanong ko siya, Pa’no kung malaman nia na may sakit ako sa puso? 
  22. HUMIRIT! ibibigay daw nia puso niya sa’kin, pero kalahati lang, para daw dpat magkasama kami para gumana yung puso namin. HAHA.. so kung magkakalayu kami, patay kami.. WEEEH. CORNY. hahaha
  23. kwento kwento.. corny jokes and everything. HAHAH. XD
  24. tapos! kakauwi nia lang. :))
bow.. <3
-April 16, 2011
in love
Today is April 15, 2011. It's our 35th monthsary. Though, it isn't so well when we start our day, ti ends good. <3
I was so near to start crying this morning thinking that he'd be lost forever, but, as always, he insists that THAT WILL NEVER BE GOING TO HAPPEN. He promise me, that will never be happening. All I can do is trust him with that promise.
And I have this feeling again, thinking if 'do I really love him?'. I can't answer my question. Well, I need some help, but I think no one can.
Then, early noon, 10:30 AM, my dad ask me to go to the bank and deposit the check of his officer to it's officer's account. I was getting ready. Whew, I feel sexy with my jeans and tshirt. HAHAH. I got to the bank and WHOAH! The people their were like sardines! There's a lot of people, waiting for their turn to pay their taxes, because TODAY IS THE DEADLINE. I wasn't that shock, because Filipinos are always doing things 11th hours, ALWAYS. Maybe, there are some not, but you can find them so RARELY. HAHAH.. I am a Filipino and sometimes, I do things 11th hour, too. :D hahahaha
Well, anyways, when I got there, I got a priority number and wanna know what my number is? 89! and wanna know what is the number they are callling that time? 29! hahahaha! My number is 60 away! OMG.. The guard assists me, and said I should probably sit while waiting because my number is too far away if I stand waiting. So, weehew, I sit.
Texting to him, good thing we're already okay. One thing I love about him? He can think of a way to make me smile. :) Even his jokes were eeew, corny and I don't know, he can managed to make me smile. :)
12PM, I am still waiting. tooot tooot toot. And the cut-off time of depositing checks on non-regional checks is 12PM! So, I have nothing to do but ask the guard if what will I do, he said, just tell her you're depositing a check, they will consider. WAHHA! Luckily, the teller really considered it. YEHEY! I am finally done waiting. hoho
Afternoon? All I do was facing the netbook, had a tinychat with tumblristas:
I am on the 3rd box. :D

I was saying goodbye to them, because I was already TIRED! hehe
After that, I practice piano. Even though, no one is teaching me, I want to practice! hahah!

Tonight, I baked brownies. IT WAS A FAIL. Because the butter and eggs separated! I mixed and mixed but still, it separates! HAHA. My sister told me, that if I mixed all the eggs, not one at a time, that'll be the result. SORRY! I didn't know. I then, put it in the turbo. HAHA After an hour of baking it, half an hour cooling it. My dad was excited to tastes it. He said IT WAS DELICIOUS. But, I oppose! Huh? Delicious? seriously dad, What you want for Christmas that you are complimenting my work? hahahahah.. peace.. Well, thank you. He really insists that it was delicious. My mom would also oppose, she said there was something, the texture was not consistent and blah blah blah. But dad, who was on my side told them, its delicious, it's like the base was a pudding and the upper layer is brownies. You can't just eat soft textures food right now, it makes you more fat. HAHHA.. He really wants to insist that my work was good. Thanks dad! XD
Whatever they told me, on criticizing my work, they all finished my brownies just like that! HAHAH.. Told ya!

But, to tell you the truth, I really don't know what sh|t happened to that brownies. HAHA. It just like that. I D-O-N-T K-N-O-W. ahhahahh

I'll bake cookies tomorrow. And i'll make sure, it will be forever delicious, its for him! :D HAHAH

goodnight. <3 :*
- April 15, 2011
in love
Yesterday? Nothing really happen that great.. Its just that I wrote my last will and testament.. I feel like I am dying.. :(

I am LONGING for his attention and love and time, but maybe I can't get what I want. I want to surrender but there's something in me says don't.

Maybe this is the shortest entry I'll be doing.. and ooh, my last will and testament? I'll be uploading it soon.

This is AGAIN a late entry. This is for April 14,but today's already April 15. And today is our monthsary. We're already been together for 2 years and 11 months, that's kinda long already.
And I am feeling alone now. I know there's something in tumblr that says, don't love is you're alone, love when you are ready.  But don't blame me if I am seeking for love when I am alone, maybe I am NOT SEEKING for love, I am looking for friendship, where I can tell them what I feel, I can chat with them anytime. Yes, I am looking for friendship, not for love, but I can't find any people who can be my friends.

Thank you blogger, I finally knew what am I looking for. :"(
- April 14, 2011